I was trying to be brave as the Dr. who performed my colonoscopy last week was explaining things to me. So I get to have a CT scan to see if it has spread to other areas of my body. If I am fortunate, it will be be localized. I would then meet with an oncologist about treatment options. If localized, colon surgery would be the answer with likelihood of lymph nodes nearby the cancerous polypoid growth would also be removed to examine them for cancer. If not localized, but regional or spread throughout it is chemo and radiation treatments.

Not what I was expecting or hoping for. Kind of really puts a damper on my life plans right now. I have to admit I am trying to keep the fear down and it is really hard. I know many have gone through this and come out the other side with flying colors. However until I know more the not knowing is going to be extremely difficult.

My sweet wife is sleeping in the next room have finished a grueling graveyard schedule of 12 days of 12 hours each to cover for staffing shortages. I don't have the heart to wake her up and talk to her about this right now as she was exhausted and sleep is sacred. So I am turning to you guys on CB right now to read my words and "listen" to my feelings right now.

I'm scared