They are Scandinavian stoic types which means that they are not getting overly emotional and going off the rails with the news. I got a couple of hugs, dinner and some conversation. I appreciated that. It was a nice distraction.

Meanwhile I read every post on this thread and some of you sent me personal BM and I will respond to them for certain. The outpouring of support had me in tears. Just thinking about it gets me weepy eyed. I am an emotional guy so I get to be that way at times both for happy moments as well as sad/tough ones.

In any case at the moment I am dealing. My mind is wanting to race in all different directions at once and like a cowboy attempting to keep a colt from bolting, I am trying to keep my mind from doing the same.

The prayers, words of support, personal offers of service as well as a willingness for some to let me reach out and talk because of what they are going through or have gone through. It humbles me greatly knowing there are those who readily open their hands and hearts out to those of us who are struggling with anything. I am also humbled knowing that while I might have a challenge, even a major life challenge ahead of me, there are those that may be dealing with much more difficult circumstances. More than anything that thought keeps me from wanting to wallow in pity. Thank those of you with the strength and courage to have dealt with much more difficult challenges. I pray Gods blessings on all of you.

I am about to wake up my wife and tell her the news. I pray the Lord give her comfort and strength to hear it. She is a gentle soul to be sure, yet she has amazing inner strength and I am relying on that to be there.

For those of you wondering or who asked. I am 56 years old. This was my first colonoscopy. I may have had symptoms like blood in stool, but that could have easily be hemorrhoid's which the Dr stated given that the lesion itself wasn't bleeding. I feel fine at least my version of fine given the circumstances. I was doing the preventive medicine thing. I wasn't having a colonoscopy because of symptoms. I know I can't do the woulda, shoulda, coulda dance. It serves no purpose and I have no clue what level or stage my cancer is given I am asymptomatic and I haven't had a CT scan done yet. I am expecting the call this week to schedule a time.

Whew emotional rollercoaster right now. I am doing my best. Thanks again everyone.