As I went to the Board this afternoon, I was heartbroken as I read your post. I have often been on the board and read your posts and admired the picture of your beautiful family. My family is grown with our last on her mission in Raleigh, NC. As I read your post, I felt so strongly I needed to post for the first time on CB in over 2 years with the thoughts of my heart. As has been said before, please don't blame yourself. Your beautiful family needs you more than they have ever needed you in the past to show an increase of love to yourself, to support your wife in her tears and heartache, to mourn with your wife and children, and to allow the Atonement of our Savior to work miracles in your life. I don't know you but from your posts, however, I feel so strongly that I do know you as a brother and am mourning with you. My wife and I will shed a tear with you tonight during or FHE. We as a family will pray for you and your entire family. May God Bless and Comfort you, your wife, and the rest of your family.