UVSCCOUG, Hang in there bro. You have more people pulling for you than you even know. Even a lot of us that don't know you personally. We are rooting for you. Great job to reach out to those around you. There is some great advise on here from others who have been in a similarly dark time and pressed forward and come off the conquerors. Take their word for it. Take it one day at a time, sometimes, one hour at a time, or even one minute at a time. And do your part to let the Savior into your life. He is the ultimate healer and can make you better than anything you can imagine. You got this.