Durrant talked about. Once you see the possibility you can't put that genie back in the bottle. Reminds me of a kid that was on my wrestling team who only wrestled his junior and senior year. Wasn't supposed to do anything and found himself in the state semis. He lost in the most heartbreaking fashion in the third period by fall after being in the lead the whole match. I will tell you this, telling him that he should be proud of getting that far, didn't make him feel better on that day or the next few.
So I just tell myself that I should be happy, but in my heart I'm disappointed. Humans are funny.