fan? Listen tool, you are not a fan. Quit pretending. You are a casual observer who gets caught up in emotion. It is clear through your posts that you don't get it, so you should just stop embarrassing yourself. Go be a ute, grow a goatee, start throwing beer at BYU players' families, and slap a Pac-12 logo on your car.
Or maybe you should just get drunk and drive home. Either way, you will still be a tool when you wake up in the morning.