Really, I am. I am not saying life does not present some very unpleasant experiences to go through, and I am not trying to down play the impact they can have on people. My guess would be in 5 or 10 years you will look back on this time and see great wisdom in your being placed in that situation. Maybe some or much of it is just a consequence of your own choices and actions. But that does not mean the resulting consequences cannot be used as a process by God to steer you back on course. Whether you do get back on course will depend on the choices you make at those times as well.
I know my words probably don't help you much, if at all, but reread D&C Section 122, especialy the last few verses. Good luck friend, it is always very hard for almost all people to see the positive when mired in a tough situation. I have the same trouble myself.
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Dan
Temet Nosce - "Know Thyself"