This year and I'm sitting at home tonight instead of sitting by hsi side. We had such a bond together with BYU football. He sculpted my life in so many ways, and his love of BYU football was forefront. He was one of the original legacy donors. We traveled to so many games together, Oxford, Texas multiple times, California many times. The rivalry is always one we had circled. His passion for BYU football was out of this world. This is the first year in a long time that I didn't get a Give Em Hell text leading up to the game this week.

He left the church for years and then this last year he turned things around and got rebaptized. His bishop was so helpful to him. It took years. Even when he wasn't attending church for years, we were still going to BYU games.

I have spent so much time this year processing his death, so many bad moments, so many things I wish I had done. I have gone through significant grief this year and came to a point where I could discuss it without crying, but in the last 5 minutes the tears just kept coming.

Cougars, win one for Viking tonight!