For the last couple of years I have not invested as much emotionally into football. I detached myself. It was too hard to watch them lose, so I disconnected. My fandom didn't waver, but I couldn't let a loss ruin my whole weekend.
Jump to this season. My emotions are sky high. I get anxious on game day. A loss, while highly likely, feels too hard. I go into every game telling myself we are going to lose because I feel like I have to prepare myself. Is anyone else as faithless as me? Help thou mine unbelief!
I don't know how the players do it!